there is A. i have known him since i was 15. ten years. we dated when i was 18 for a little over a month. he told me that he and his gf had broken up. well, they had. but he didn't mention when they got back together. she called me crying. that's how i found out. I was mad and wouldn't talk to him for years. i got married. we slowly started emailing an IMing each other and became friends again. i got divorced. i called him and we dated for about a year and a half. things went bad. more on that later.

there is N. i met him in college. it was love at first sight. he had a gf. he was too nice to cheat on her with me. a year and a half later i was not too nice to cheat on my bf with N. then when the bf proposed i ended things with N. still think about him all the time. i am supposed to hang out with him tonight. he has a gf. of four years. that he started dating right after i broke up with him.

there is M. i met him about 4 months ago. at the bar. after talking to him on the internet. he is the hottest, nicest and sweetest of the bunch. i have been crappy to him. and he is still as nice as ever. he wants to take me on vacation and fix up my house. he wants to meet my mom and make me happy. he is too clean. sometimes his teasing goes too far. but that's all i can find wrong with him.

everyone i know has there vote cast. my family likes A. my friends T likes N or maybe M. my roommate likes A a little too much if you ask me. No one really supports M cause no one has really met him.

but i have no idea what to do. and not to sound like a nerd but i am kind of getting to that point in my life where i would like to know.